staceyyoufathoe

I got a new live journal.
sometimes letting things out helps me feel a bit better.

so since this summer
Ive gotten a boyfriend
Made new best friends with the most awesome girl ever
& I've fallen out of love

I really do care about Jarred a whole lot
like
you could never know
i swear I've NEVER felt this way before
about anyone

it completley blows me away
just
my complete adoration for this boy
its like this mindless need to want to be around him all the time
just to be in his arms.
before when I had boyfriends or whatever I would kind of have feelings for other guys too
but not this time
he is the only boy in my head
I am astounded by the fact that a boy as amazing as him would even look at me
but still

I'm a complete ass to him
I don't try to be
I want to be nice to him but, like i dunno
I treat him like crap & he doesn't deserve
I get so jealous
I mean honestly if you've ever seen him
you'll you know just how like handsome he is
& youd get jealous really easy too
& I just wish i could chill the fuck out
because I don't want to screw this up.
like i was aloud to make one wish
it would be that I would never screw this up

I dont want money,fashion,intelligence.
I just want love.
simply love.

sometimes I think its to much to ask?